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April 29 Missing In ActionWhere have we been? I would like to have some great story behind our disappearence....captured by aliens or a trip around the world.
 But the truth is our diaspearence was just weakness. We lost sight of our goal and everything came to a screeching halt. It is sad but true. We have not exercised in over a month and can't even begin to tell you the amount of bad food we have ate. It is shameful and embarrassing. I have really beat myself up over the past week thinking of where I would be if I had not quit. And I am disappointed that I have gained weight back. I think sometimes in my head I really believe I can't do this and I just give up. I have to somehow discover where that is coming from and beat it. That is probably going to be the hardest challenge for me. But I am going to put this shortcoming behind me and just look forward from here. I am not going to look at this as a failure but rather a lesson learned. I am going to remember how it felt to give up. I am going to remember how disappointed I felt in myself. I am going to to remember how hard it is to get started again.
I am ready to get back on track again (hopefully this time for good) and I am hoping by refocusing on my goals I will inspire Kyle to join me. I want us to do this right this time. It felt great when we were doing this before and I want to remember what that felt like. March 11 Last Blog and Weigh In-----NOT!!!Well...last "offficial" blog and weigh in. We had a good weigh in today (a day early). We both lost 3 lbs each. That is good numbers to end this with.
Can you believe this contest is over in just a couple of hours? I can't believe how fast time flew. I am so proud of Kyle. He has done awesome. I am prettty happy with my results although I wish I had lost a little more. But this journey is not over for us even though the contest is so I will continue to see the pounds drop.
I wish you all the best of luck. This is a great community and I look forward to seeing everyone's continued progress. March 05 Week 8 Weigh InWell, we both had weight gains this week. I gained 1 lb. I am not suprised though. It is my TOM so I am retaining water. Even my rings are tight. I always have a great weigh-in the week after so I am hoping to lose at least 4 lbs next week. Kyle gained 2 lbs. He has just got to get back on schedule again. I feel partly responsible since I am the main meal maker and I have not done a very good job at providing healthy meals lately. He'll make it up next week.
Can you believe this contest is over in less than a week? We will weigh-in a day early next week since the 11th is the cut off. We also will be doing progress photos soon. I can't wait for that. Kyle's body is so different and the jeans I wore in my starting photos are too big now (even after drying them in the dryer).
Good luck to everyone this week. March 03 Blogs and BirthdaysI am so impressed and inspired by some of the blogs I read. One in particular really inspired me today. If you haven't read Tammy's (http://whathaveyoudonetoday.spaces.live.com) latest blog "I said yes yes yes" you should. In fact you should read all of them. Her blogs are great. My blog with make more sense too if you read hers.
Anyway this leads me to my point. I have really been out of sorts and kinda down the last couple of weeks. Don't really know why. I just have. I have allowed myself things that I shouldn't and have stopped exercising. I haven't really found the motivation to get back on the horse again. This morning I read Tammy's blog and it really struck a chord with me. I have always just tried to diet but never dealt with the emotional part. Somehow I thought if I got skinnier all the emotional damage would just disappear on its own. That somehow being thin would rid me of all my problems. I'm am learning that it doesn't happen that way. Somehow I have to learn to quiet that destructive inner voice and I have to replace it with that voice of confidence, determination and pride . I have to remind myself that this voice can be louder if I just let it. I have to change the way I think. And I know I can!!! So I am going to get back up on that horse and snap out of this destructive mood I have been in and I am going to teach that negative inner voice a lesson. I am choosing to say YES YES YES!!!
Everyone...keep writing your blogs. You never know who they are going to inspire.
Today is my 35th birthday. Reading that blog this morning was the best birthday present I could receive. Thank you Tammy!
February 25 TiredI'm tired. Not the I need a nap kind of tired. The mental and emotional kind of tired. I'm tired of counting calories. I'm tired of thinking about what to put in my mouth, what to fix for dinner, what to take for lunch. I'm tired of spending hours at the grocery store looking at labels. I'm tired of searching the internet for healthy recipes so we don't get tired of the same foods. I'm tired of searching the menus at restaraunts for something healthy. I'm tired of trying to work in a workout. And it goes beyond this "lifestyle change". I'm tired of bills, laundry, cleaning the house, work, obligations and responsibilty. What is wrong with me? Why is this becoming so tough and exhausting?
I'm not giving up (just yet) but I am really starting to believe that I will just never cut it. That thin is just not in the cards for me. Maybe I just don't want this as bad as I have always thought I did. I really have a lot to think about. February 20 Week 7 Weigh InWell I had no weight loss and Kyle lost 1 lb. this week. No shocker there.We have made several bad choices. First neither of us exercised this week. Second we made some terrible food choices. I have had Cold Stone Creamery one day. We both ate Burger and fries from Red Robin, Steak Fajitas and burritos (not to mention mounds of chips) from On The Border. So the only real shocker is that there was no gain. I could sit here and write a million excuses as to why we made the bad choices but the fact is there is no excuse. We have to learn that in life there are many interruptions, you get busy but you still have to make good choices. The truth is every time we made a bad choice we had the opportunity to make a good choice. There were choices on the menus that were healthy. We could have found the time to work out if we had chose to.
I am personally disappointed with myself this week. But I can be negative and let it get me down or choose to be positive and chalk it up as a learning experience. I have learned that I don't like the way it felt this morning stepping on that scale and seeing no loss (knowing it was my fault). I learned that I don't like the way it feels when I don't give it the best that I have. I am going to do 100% better in week 8 and can't wait to step on the scale next week. February 13 Week 6 Weigh InSomebody pinch me b/c I must be dreaming. We had great weigh in. I lost 4 lbs and Kyle lost 3 lbs. I am thrilled. I think I am finally hittng my stride. Not only am I seeing the weight loss on the scale but I am seeing it in my clothes and in the mirror. One of the first things I notice when I am losing weight is my arms and I can see the difference. I have to wear a belt now with my jeans and I am about to go down a size in my bras. I even feel more energetic.
I can't believe Kyle is almost to the half way point. He is out of his size 38 jeans and back in his size 34 jeans. I can see a huge difference and I am liking what I see. Sorry if that embarassed you honey but you are looking fine!
We are pumped up for week 7!!!!! February 12 RealizationOn February 6th my mom celebrated her 52nd birthday (yes she is very young). The day before that she was diagnosed with COPD (chronic emphysema and bronchitis). My mom has been sick for a long time. She has mountains of health issues but none have hit home like finding this out. The realization that I may not have my mother around much longer scares the hell out of me. You see...my mom and I have not always seen eye to eye. We have had huge differences of opinion on the way my sisters and I were raised and what kind of mom she should have been. I have held tons of resentment towards her for the past and I have been very unforgiving. Over the past week I have come to realize it is time to forgive and let go before I am not given a second chance to have the kind of relationship with my mother that we should have. I have come to realize that I want my children to know and remember their grandmother. I have come to realize it is time to let the past go and start fresh in the present. I love her and I want my mother around more than I ever realized. I also realize how very important this weight loss journey is for me now. How important it is for me to be healthy for my children and grandchildren. How much I want to live a very long life. February 06 Week 5 Weigh InWell, if you can believe it I lost 1 pound. I was pleasantly surprised with all my screw ups this past weekend. Kyle had no loss but with a 17 lb loss in 4 weeks he was expecting it. We are both happy with the results this week and we are ready to face a new week! February 05 Put To The TestSince I started this I haven't really had many obstacles or temptations but this weekend I was really put to the test.
I am disappointed that I allowed a whirl wind of a weekend to allow myself bad food choices. I am always going to have hectic days or weekends but I can't use them as excuses to make bad choices if I really want to change things. I read a quote recently that has really stuck with me....
I don't want to do what I've always done so I have to choose better and not let anything get in my way. Weigh in is tomorrow so we'll see the damage then. I will be stepping up my workout this afternoon!
January 30 HumbledOur weigh in was this morning. I had a 2 lb loss and Kyle had another 4 lb loss. We are both happy with that! I am just super thankful that I had a loss and not another gain. I have to say that after seeing the Biggest Loser's weigh in last night I am humbled. The contestants work so hard and to see them not lose or gain is heartbreaking. Don't get me wrong I work hard to lose but nothing compared to what they endure on the show. During the last chance workout last night Jillian said "ok...that is the first hour". I was just sitting there thinking that is just 1 hour....how can they do anymore... I would be about to die. I felt guilty watching last night that I complain about a loss or a gain of any kind when they work so hard and have a bad weigh in. So from know on I am going to try to be much more appreciative of my losses. January 29 Things to be proud of!Before we weigh in tomorrow (and that mean scale tells me something I may not want) I want to concetrate on the things that I did that made me proud this week.
These are big things for me...especially the food items. In the past i would use eating out or a work lunch to splurge on my diets. I did good and it feels great! I only wish I would have worked out more than 3 days. My weekly goal is 5 days so I fell short and feel guilty about it b/c I can't justify it. But no looking back only forward and cheers to a new week!
January 26 Scale Dictatorship....NO MORE!!I finally got out of my funk from the week 3 weigh in. I'm proud that I didn't let it control what I ate but ashamed that I let it control my attitude. I came to the conclusion that I will not let that scale dictate how I feel anymore. I have been letting people and things dictate how I feel all my life and I know exactly what it lead to....253 pounds of sad, angry, hate, disgust, hurt, etc, etc. , etc.. I refuse to let the scale beat me down. I feel great! My energy level has increased. My self esteem is growing and I am proud of myself for what I am overcoming. So the next time I gain or lose nothing I will lift my head up high and move on knowing that regardless of what that mean scale says I am still doing what is best for me.
January 23 Weigh InOur weigh in was today. Kyle once again did awesome and lost 4 lbs. Making his grand total 13 lbs. so far. He is a machine! I am so pround of him. He is doing great!
I on the other hand gained 1 lb. I am just not getting it. I am doing everything right yet I have had 2 weeks now where I gained instead of losing. It is really strating to take its toll on me. I am in such a funk! I didn't even work out last night (and it wasn't my off day). I have never had problems like this with losing weight. I don't know where to go from here (maybe Baskin n Robbins). Just kidding....maybe!
I don't know what I am going to diferently this week. Excercise harder, excerise less, eat more, eat less, blah, blah, blah! Frustration, frustration, frustration!!!! January 21 What do you think?
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You need 248.4 grams of carbohydrates, 65.6 grams of fat, and 99.4 grams of protein per day for 1987.1 calories to maintain your goal weight of 153 pounds. I'm sorry, but our Nutrition Guide requires that you have javascript turned on in your browser. Please remember that these calorie counts are an average, you may need to adjust your calorie needs up or down slightly to get the results you want. Your results are calculated to help you understand how many calories you need to maintain your current weight, or the number of calories you need to lose weight slowly, over several months' time.
If you would like more detailed information about the number of calories you need, join Calorie-Count Plus. Membership is free and you wil have access to online tools to create the perfect diet Scale Peeker HypocriteI know I know....I have lectured many of you (including my hubby) about not peeking at the scale before your weekly weigh in and yet this week I have done it 3 times already. Can anybody say hypocrite? I have been so paranoid b/c of my weight gain the first week. Well it seems I have had reason to be paranoid. This morning I peeked (again) and I am back up 2 lbs. How is this possible? I am getting so frustrated. I am busting my @$$!! I have never worked this hard before but the scale is not reflecting it. I WANT TO SCREAM (or cry).
On the positive side I adjusted my calories. I was about 500 shy of what I should have been eating so maybe this affected my metabolism. Also I did measurements Saturday so that I could start seeing inches and not just rely on the scale.
Still I feel frustrated...I am almost 3 full weeks into this and I am still figuring out how this weight loss thing works. I've never had a problem in the past losing (just staying on track). This time around I am working harder then ever (I really want this) but yet I am seeing no reward! It makes it real hard to stay positive! January 20 What have we done lately...I haven't bloged since the 14th so I thought I better get on here and add an update. As you may or may not have already seen Kyle had a 2 lb weight loss last weigh in. That was pretty good given he was sick for 4 days and only worked out once or twice. I had a 5 lb weight loss but with my gain of 2 lbs the previous week it only put me 3 lbs closer to my goal. We weigh again on January 23.
So far this week we have done great. Kyle is feeling better so he is stepping it up. We dusted and brought in his weight bench from the garage today so he will be adding that to his workouts. Me too, sometimes,but not as often as he will. I have been doing cardio and toning/firming or strength training most everyday. I decided to take Wednesday and Thursdays off from working out. I work really long hours on those 2 days and by the time I get home, eat and spend time with my girls it is time for bed. I was feeling a bit overwhelmed trying to squeeze in a workout too. I am still trying to do a little walking at work though on those days. Kyle and I have also researched some weight loss sites and to our surprise we have been depriving ourselves in the calorie department so we both increased our calorie intake yesterday. I hope it proves a good thing and doesn't screw us up come weigh in. I have been really surprised to see how hard it is for me to add more calories. I have gotten so use to eating less it has now made it hard to add more. I am just not hungry all the time like I used to be (well most of the time)
. The Million Pound Match Up has really been a great motivating force for us. I don't think we have ever worked this hard at changing our lifestyle. We are determined this time and I believe we will do it. I have really enjoyed everyone's stories, struggles and successes. They are great inspiration to us. Also thanks to those of you that have left us comments and messages we really appreciate it.
Well I am a sleepy girl and tomorrow is the beginning of another tedious work week. I know a lot weigh ins start tomorrow for teams. Good luck to everyone this week! January 14 Welcome to the JungleThank God for MP3 players and hard rocking music to work out too. By the time Axl Rose was belting out "Welcome to the jungle baby.... Your goin' die" I really thought I was. But it is that kind a hard hitting music that gets me through these workouts.
Kyle has been burning 400 and 500 calories in his 30 minute workouts on the elliptical b/c he does one of the Smart Programs (which increases resistance so you work harder). So 3 or 4 days ago I decided to step up my pace on the ellpitical and do one of the 30 minute Smart Programs too. Well I'm getting through them (barely) and burning more calories but they are kicking my booty. I start off fine (resistance 2, 3, and 4) then I have to push a little harder (resistance 5). By 6, 7 and 8 I am dying. I have to stop every few minutes (just for 5 seconds) to catch my breath. Also this program has a little bulls eye thingy on it that blinks and tells you to go faster if you are not going the pace it thinks you should. I can't keep pace with it 85% of the time. So this has become one of my short term goals. By March 11th I will be able to do this program and more w/o stopping for breath breaks and at the pace that bulls eye tells me (the whole 30 minutes)! January 13 LoatheI hate hate hate working out. Even though I love that it gives me energy and that I feel a sense of accomplishment afterwards I still loathe it. I dread it up until the point that it is done.
I was watching The TV guide channel on Friday and they were doing a special on the Biggest Loser Couples. They interviewed all the couples and Allison. Bob and Jillian were training each other and giving tips. Anyone else see that? Anyway Jillian admitted during an interview that she loathes working out but that she uses as a tool to make her body healthy and happy (something like that). I was so suprised to hear her say that. She seems like she loves it. Somehow knowing she hates it too made me feel better. I mean there must be something great about it. Right?! I'll never be that fit or a personal trainer but I can do this to make me healthier and happier. I can do this so I can see my children grow. I can do this so that I feel good about myself. I hate it and it's hard but I can do this! January 09 Kyle you Rock!In my discouragement this morning over my weight gain I failed to really tell you how very proud I am of you and your 7 lb weight loss!!! That's a loss of 3.03%. Congrats babe and way to go!!! You rock! |
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